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REVIVE YOUR PURPOSE

... because there's more 

TO DO

 

· FIVE sequential/weekly 90-minute workshops

(every THURSDAY @ 7PM PDT) · launches July 09, 2020 online

 

or

 

· ONE single-event, two-hour workshop (TUESDAY @ 7PM PDT) · launches July 07, 2020 online

 

attendees: age 50-70

 

mission:  to inspire those who've accomplished (all) yet seek more

 

vision:  Mature adults—(now) living life according to the plan they were gifted at birth

participants consist of 4-8 individuals eager to answer:

and

To my more mature friends online,

 

I want you to know that I sought you out specifically. I see you all as accomplished individuals. Individuals that—I assume—have set out goals and achieved them.

 

Accomplishing all you set out to do is truly fantastic, but some of you may be asking, "What happens next?" Not only in your professional career but in your lives in general. Well…that's why I'm here.

 

It's my assumption that accomplished individuals also happen to be rather intelligent. And, I feel that the most intelligent individuals perpetually ask "why?" In the next few minutes as I speak, in the back of your minds, I'd like you to reflect on your lives and ask, "Why?"

 

"Why did I choose this particular path?" "Why did I choose to live life the way I have?"

 

Trust me, once you answer, your current life will be much easier to understand. So much easier to make sense of. And you'll know why "challenging" things happen within your life.

 

In late-1991, at age 34, I was fiercely determined to find out why I couldn't have an intimate relationship. I felt that answering this question determined if I would see 1992 or not. On New Year's Eve, after not having slept for about two months compiling information nonstop, I confronted my mother over the phone on New Year's Eve.

 

"Who the fuck is buried in the backyard of the house on Hillmont!?!"

 

I kept at it, using language I'd never used in front of my mother before. My skin had turned the color of blood. 34 years of RAGE came out in that five-minute conversation, all of it justified. My mother denied everything, except when a sliver of truth came out accidentally. That's the moment my skin turned from blood red back to white, well tan, actually. 😊

 

I never did jump off my 21st-floor balcony that night. Instead, I got my answer and my life has never been the same. The early-90s—in addition to gaining about a hundred pounds (as "protection")—were spent dealing with the reality of it all:

 

In 1960, my father shot his partner on the Oakland Police force twice in the head. His partner was on top of me, raping me. My father wasn't protecting me, he was upset because his partner chose to begin the "ritual" early that night, before my parents were present… to do their part. 2 months later I turned 3.

 

Looking back, I'd initially thought that having experienced this life-changing discovery was my purpose: to know this "secret," but no. It did prolong my life but didn't answer why I'm here.

 

Yes, forgiveness is divine, but full forgiveness can only be accomplished with full compassion. To the best of my ability, I forgave my parents, but still labeled them "narcissists." I despised narcissists, until I realized that I fit all the criteria of being one myself. I know what made me so unhappy in life, but…

 

What made them so unhappy? Do the things they did? What made them the way they were?

 

I was given this life to have these exact experiences so I can learn and practice compassion, acceptance, patience in all forms. Not just for my parents, but for everyone I'd judged, labeled a "narcissist." After several years, I'm grateful to have learned that good does exist in everyone.

 

You've heard my story, but yours remains to be told. I told you a bit of mine, so you'd know my true "why I'm here." Have you asked yourselves why YOU'RE here? I don't really participate in any religion and don't go to church but having had the circumstances that led up to my own life-changing moment made me realize that there was something far greater going on than my ego ever recognized.

 

Keep thinking about your WHY! All of you have had something substantial that was a huge turning point in your lives. At this point in life, I find it doubtful for any of you to say that "that hasn't happened to me (yet)." Mine led me to realize that practicing compassion for everyone was my true purpose. My why.

 

I no longer point fingers, I no longer blame, and my emotional age has finally caught up with my biological one. I wish I had gotten there sooner, but, better late than never. Most narcissists remain children "emotionally" until the day they die. Your own purpose may have nothing at all to do with narcissism, developing and practicing compassion, so…

 

Have you identified yours yet?

 

If you're at all wondering, I hope you'll consider what I share tonight, allow it to sit in your head for a while. My sincere hope is that you'll perhaps look at your life differently; take the burden off, give your own "perfectionist" nature a rest. Stop feeling the need to control everything. The plan you've devised may be wonderful, but there may be an even more perfect one out there.

 

Please consider attending my Revive Your Purpose workshop. Two hours of time that I'm hoping will stimulate your mind, prompt you to look objectively at the why of it all: your life and why you're here.

 

A small group, only 4-8 individuals, sometimes working in pairs. I'll briefly share, then it's your turn. Anyone who wants to can, while others listen. This isn't analysis, not group therapy, most certainly not Dr. Phil. All without emotion. Looking at the turning points of your lives rationally.

 

At your crossroads, did you elect to take the difficult path? If you took the easier, more manageable one, did another very similar life-changing event take place? They tend to keep repeating over and over and over again until we accept the challenge.

 

More than anything, did you feel compelled to take action you felt was mandatory? Did it make you recognize that you have a purpose? Definitely not an obligation, a purpose that was placed before you?

 

This is the whole point of this workshop. As we listen to the stories, look for commonality in their overall meaning. Maybe we'll find out that there is so much more in common with our neighbors than there are differences.

 

There are so many helpful tools at our disposal today; some better than others, some resonate within us. Personally, I'm not big on trends, gimmicks, quick fixes or anything scientific. It's my belief that lessons exist for us for as long as we're alive, and then some… If we learn everything/all of them now, quite simply we'd no longer be here.

 

I hope that if—and after—you attend, you'll want to invest in more ME time; walks alone in nature, anyplace where busyness is at a minimum. If you're lucky enough, blessed enough to find alone time in nature while out for a walk, ask a question you need an answer to. Just ask quietly, right as you take your first steps.

 

When you walk for a while, 30 min. to an hour, the answer or answers will be inside your head, will be provided for you simply because you'd asked, and your mind had minimal clutter in your head to be able to distinguish answer(s) from clutter.

 

I've spent a lot of time alone in life; somehow, I think it's been a substantial part of my purpose to do so, to learn, to heal, to recognize, remember and to practice my purpose for being here.

 

Having others around us is great. Maybe we've existed here before with folks we're connected to. But, I feel strongly we're here now to learn our lessons, those that were given to us exclusively, not collectively.

 

One of the best feelings on earth is to not be supported by anyone else, but to know that you need no support/approval/acknowledgement from anyone, not even family or a mate. No one else.

 

I used to write books for middle graders; the protagonist, Miguelito, lived with a fatal form of a skin-blistering disease called EB. One of the main ingredients that kept him going were his To Do lists. Simply put, he felt that the more he NEEDED to do in life, the longer he had to hang around to get them done. His wise aunt encouraged him to make a new entry daily. Miguelito's To Do list was always full.

 

He was a pre-teen in those books and his purpose wasn't really on his mind, certainly too deep a concept for someone that young. As adults, mature adults, our needs mimic those of Miguelito's.

 

The more we need (NOT desire) to do, to learn, the longer we'll have to be here to accomplish (more). As adults, hopefully wise adults, we should know that learning lessons put in front of us, needing to learn them, is maybe even more significant than checking off tasks, chores, errands.

 

Do you feel as if you've done it all? Stop…and reflect. After achieving yet wondering what's next, reviving your purpose may add years to your (personal) calendar and give your life a meaning, sense of accomplishment that may make you say,

 

"Whew! This is bigger than I thought…and it's fulfilling!"

 

The snippet of a story I told you at the beginning I revealed with no feeling, really; it's part of my fiber now. I do know for a fact that without having discovered that truth, I wouldn't be standing here today. If I hadn't learned and practiced compassion for my parents, for all those involved in that "truth," and inevitably for others, I'd be missing the greatest satisfaction I feel in my life. And, I'm still at it.

 

We are all tested every day, giving us more and more opportunities to learn and practice patience, compassion, whatever it is. Thank goodness for these tests. My goal remains to pass these tests, not get an A or A+. This should be the goal for all of us: none of us are perfect, none of us will learn it all.

 

Whether you have interest in meeting with me again by attending the workshops I'm offering, I'd like you to ask yourselves one question when you're alone, by yourself, have no noise around you, "Why?" "Why am I here?" "Why am I living this life?" and "Am I living a life where I recognize repeat "lessons" and choose to take them on?" or "Were they simply coincidences?"

 

Create a To Do list, make it full and keep it full. You may find that this incites passion, creates excitement about what's to come: a fulfilling future. If you haven't yet, discover your truth, do your best to deal with it and then learn from it.

 

No matter how determined I was, I never could have attained my truth without help I never knew existed. The truth that was given to me in 1991 was the most precious gift of my lifetime; as a result, it would be the ultimate betrayal to deny the purpose I'd been granted, a huge slap in the face.

 

I share all this with you now, because I want all of you to recognize this rare gift you were born with: your true purpose. My goal at the end of the day is to say, "Job well done." I'd like you all to have that same feeling, to say those same words…after you'd answered your "why."

 

Many thanks for your attention! Good luck on your journey to do more!!

 

-- Clint Adams

REVIVE YOUR PURPOSE

 

aims to help participants:

 

• scrutinize their life-changing events, identify the truths/lessons contained therein


• differentiate the purposes they've devised from the ones they were born with


• find fulfillment in understanding their lives/why things happen the way they do

Downloadable TO DO list used in every Revive Your Purpose workshop (36.2 KB)

...because

 

the more you NEED (not want) to do in life,

the longer you'll NEED to hang around get it all done.

 

Make your TO DO list full and keep it full!!!

 
 

 
 

available in hardcover, paperback, Kindle and non-Kindle eBook editions

 

settings within this book + screenplay can now be found on squirl interactive map:

 

https://maps.squirl.co/book/198

synopsis:

A descendant of presidents John and John Quincy Adams, and the black sheep of her family, astrologer Evangeline Adams flees provincial Boston in 1899 to launch her business in New York City. On the train ride, she casts her own horoscopic chart. Her findings--death on November 10, 1932 and an unusual intimate union--alarm her. Soon after, she meets actress and suffragist Emma Sheridan-Fry, and she spends the rest of her life torn between society's restrictions and the trail-blazing nature that made her one of the most prominent female businesswomen of her time.

Peopled with real historical figures, including J.P. Morgan, King Edward VII, Enrico Caruso, Rudolph Valentino, Charles Schwab, Mary Pickford, Charlie Chaplin, Sheridan-Fry (who was known to have been a "companion" of Evangeline's) and occult figure Aleister Crowley, Evangeline The Seer of Wall St. immerses readers in a New York populated with the Wall Street wealthy and the downtrodden, all of whom visited Evangeline's Carnegie Hall office.

KIRKUS REVIEW

A fanciful, fictional memoir of the real-life Evangeline Smith Adams, the most famous astrologer of the early 20th century.

Anyone who can predict the future should be able to write her own obituary. Adams, the astrologer, known as the “seer of Wall Street” for advising clients like J.P. Morgan, reportedly predicted her Nov. 10, 1932, demise earlier the same year. Adams, the author (The Seventh Ritual, 2009, etc.), pushes that prediction backward three decades to establish the primary tension driving his story—professional ambition versus the ticking clock. (The author has no familial relationship to the astrologer or her ancestors, U.S. presidents John and John Quincy.) The fiction closely follows fact and includes reprints of newspaper stories. In 1899, the 31-year-old Evangeline, unconventional and career-minded, cancels a wedding engagement; moves from Boston to New York to launch her astrology business; predicts the Windsor Hotel fire; gains notoriety; and sets up shop at Carnegie Hall. She later beats fortunetelling arrests in court; maintains a long-running relationship with an actress, playwright, and suffragist; and marries her young business manager, who propels her career via radio, books, and speeches to the pinnacle of fame and fortune. Mirroring Evangeline’s affinity for gaudy antiques, Adams has a penchant for piling up modifiers: “Hands rested aimlessly upon the 19th-century mahogany teapoy table, faces stared into the Italian Gilt Wood Grapevine mirror blankly, and mindless chatter took place around the Baroque ‘Putto Face’ cast iron wall fountain.” Whether such constructions enhance the story’s verisimilitude or detract from it depends on personal taste; they occur often but neither make nor break the story. Style aside, the story itself is intriguing, the pace is lively, and the pages turn quickly. The author infuses his characters with consistent personality traits, believable motives, and outlooks that are changed by events over decades. Most importantly, he gives Evangeline a fitting central quest: reconciling her confidence in the infallibility of the stars with her own life choices.

After this fine historical novel, it’s easy to predict new fans for Adams.

excerpt: first chapter

Sun @ 28° TAURUS 7'52
(1914)



Six thousand five hundred and seventy days remain in my life, according to my astrological calculations. As a woman of society, now a rather mature woman, decorum prevents me from divulging how many days have come prior. My first began in Jersey City, New Jersey, a locale some might regard as unbefitting a member of America’s First Family, but a start to my destiny nonetheless. Nearly three years after the reunification of America’s North and South, on an overcast and gusty Saturday, February eighth, at precisely eight-thirty in the morning, the pendulum attached to my internal clock took its initial swing. Its continued movement is something I’ve learned to never take for granted.

“Make every moment count…as if your life depends on it,” my most loyal client, financier J.P. Morgan, always said while straightening the line of his eyebrows with his forefingers. Wise words from an extraordinary man, a titan whose few vulnerabilities, according to him, were divulged only to me. J.P. never wasted time, or opportunities. This afternoon, I’ve taken his example to heart. I plan to create a moment that will live on forever. Today, I’ll stand firm and show everyone that I truly do matter.

###



“Miss Adams, do you feel that it will be your well-known clientele—royalty, financial barons, moving picture stars—and your luxurious suites at Carnegie Hall, that will influence the judge’s decision most?”

On the first of two white marble steps leading to the entrance of the West Side Magistrates Court at 314 West 54th Street in midtown Manhattan, I’m forced to stop. Not yet underneath the twenty-foot archway to this Italian Renaissance Revival structure with its softly inviting terra cotta outward appearance above, my blood begins to simmer under the pressure of cumulonimbus-filled skies above. This is exactly why I’ve chosen to fight.

The question comes from a stout, broad-eyed, bald man of about twenty-five, impertinent in his demeanor, uninspired in his delivery. He’s neglected to offer to share his umbrella on this dingy day, and now he poses questions to me without a proper introduction? “And you are?”

With clammy beads of sweat accumulating on his upper lip he says, “Ralph Slocum, ma’am. New York Times.”

“Clientele? Carnegie Hall? You forgot to mention that my lineage traces back to Presidents John and John Quincy Adams. Perhaps it’s this fact that will impress the judge most.” At that, he has the decency to blush. “Sir, none of these will have any bearing on today’s outcome.”

Next to me on the slippery, rain-soaked step, my steadfast twenty-three-year-old secretary and confidante, Bavarian-born Sabine Goldman, agrees with a fierce nod, causing her Jewish Chai pendant to bounce against her ample chest. As is her own unique style, Sabine chooses to wear sheer linen weeks before the arrival of summer, while incessantly humming I’m on My Way to Mandalay because she doesn’t know the words.

“Ma’am. John Pierpont Morgan. Three presidents of the New York Stock Exchange. King Edward. All those bon vivants?”

“Mr. Slocum, the judge’s decision will have nothing to do with those that have selected my services. I am a woman who conducts business. Two hundred Carnegie Hall has been a more than suitable site to render what I do; my address does not make me more credible, less credible, than the next person.”

“And how do you feel this decision will impact the future of your business, your ‘calling’?”

“My business as an astrologer?”

“Not only that, but the future of astronomy in general.”

“You do mean to say astrology, not astronomy. Is that correct?”

“Yes, of course, ma’am. Astrology. Exactly.”

###



Two hundred dollars. A petty and simplistic restitution, the cost of the emerald brooch I wear atop my tweed lapel. I could have merely paid the fine, but I requested a hearing instead. When the entirety of one’s life’s work is under scrutiny, a court case is nothing more than a paltry pittance to endure for unequivocal justice.

So now, like thousands of defendants who have come before me, my fate will shortly be decided in this frigid, second floor courtroom situated on the periphery of Hell’s Kitchen. All I can hope is that the marinara sauce I imagine Judge Freschi ate last night left his Italian taste buds satiated, leaving him hungry for nothing more than the truthful aftertaste of my testimony.

The black-eyed bailiff, with one hand mysteriously remaining in his left pants pocket commands, “All rise,” seemingly directed to me. My unexpected upward and paranoid stance causes my library of astrological reference books, including my Swiss Ephemeris, my bible, which gives the positions of astronomical objects in the heavens at a given time, to tumble to the floor from my lap like a singular clap of applause. Some pages even become dislodged from their bindings, but my hands quickly regroup them. Although my nerves begin to rattle under the now-piercing gaze of every thief, hoaxer, prostitute and possible Black Hand-extortionist now staring at me, I refuse to be embarrassed. These books are here for spectacle and show, identical to the two hired esquires to my rear. J.P., may he rest in peace, has left me in good counsel. The billions of dollars I generated for him have come back to me in the presence of two of Wall St.’s finest attorneys. The judge should take note, but I’m not wagering on it.

After I’ve collected my belongings, the bulky bailiff continues, “The Superior Court of New York County, State of New York, is now in session, the Honorable John H. Freschi presiding. Please be seated and come to order.”

I feel a stern tap on my right shoulder, ordering me to sit. Then a second. My tactile attorney has earned his pay, twice now. Together, we three behold the parade of criminal horror stories on the docket before us, and we judge for ourselves the defendants on trial.

“Are you nervous?” olive-drably dressed Attorney #1 asks, two octaves above being audible.

“I feel secure about the outcome. Nervousness is felt only by those less certain. Vinci Omnia Veritas,” I answer back with authority, while my posterior notices the crude lumpiness of the worn, padded red velvet seat upon which my piles are seated.

In my good man’s eyes I can see the absence of Latin within them. Proper English to all present from this moment forward. “Our case is coming soon. Is that correct?”

“Very soon. If the petty larceny hearing preceding ours ends quickly, the judge will surely address you next.”

Indeed the theft inquiry ends before it begins when a newspaper dealer fails to appear against his accused. The young man, with hair greasier than a streetcar’s axle, doesn’t look as relieved as one would imagine. There’s an air of disappointment about him rather than elation at the dismissal. What was it that he had stolen? A stack of overpriced 5¢ copies of the Sunday New York Times? If practice makes perfect, I’d deduce that he’ll re-visit the newspaper merchant until the thief gets the attention he’s seeking.

“The next case, the People ex. rel. Adele D. Priess versus Evangeline S. Adams. Will the parties please rise.”

This is the moment of my lifetime. My eyes blink shut, then open. Three times. No, not a dream. No one is beside me. Inconspicuously I look behind me to my left, where one attorney gives me a stony grin. I look beyond him and—There. There in the spectator section gazes my trustworthy secretary, Sabine. She always wears a grimace along with a vibrant ruby red scarf, much too seductive for any professional setting. At second thought, a sardonic sneer, rather than a grimace. Sabine’s attendance here today comforts me, except when she hums; at any given moment, she can put the fear of God in even the most well intentioned human or pet.

Sabine nods. Yes, I see it. In a split second my eyes move on to her right. There sits the beloved comrade of my Aquarian soul, demure yet conspicuous to me, Emma Sheridan-Fry. In her violet plumed hat and perfect posture Emma doesn’t need to grin, grimace or nod. Emma needn’t do anything. Seeing her poise, her grace, the way she breathes in air that’s always unforced makes my anxiety diminish, my heart full, my being calm, while reinforcing my desire to get these proceedings underway for businesswomen everywhere who fight to be taken seriously. I smile at my Emma and stop searching. Instead, I turn back to the front of the court and cast my azure eyes upon the judge perched at an altar-like rosewood table with russet trim before me. He appears to be a genial man. Still a mystery though what he enjoyed for dinner last night, nor if his stomach found it agreeable or not. If he belches into his clenched hands I’ll be certain of my presumption.

Judge John H. Freschi, upon more finite examination, somewhat resembles my diminutive, dimple-chinned and olive toned client, Enrico Caruso. Or am I just being small minded? Perhaps both have origins in southern Italy; perhaps both come from opposite ends of the boot.

“Miss Evangeline Smith Adams?” the prosecutrix, whose overall girth and bulging biceps make her look better suited to coach football, asks.

Thinking all along that it was the judge himself with whom I’d be speaking, uncertainty and confusion take over. “Yes, your—Miss, Mrs.” Based on appearance and demeanor, I assume I’m being interrogated by a perpetually unmarried woman. “It is Miss, isn’t it?”

“I’ll ask the questions. Now, you are the proprietress of the…” Miss Scrum’s mouth twists unpleasantly. “…business, shall we say?”

“That’s correct, ma’am. It is indeed a business. A consulting business.”

“Where advice is given…by you. And do others, within your business environs, provide advice?”

“I am the only one. I have a staff of several secretaries and stenographers. Researchers as well. To be exact, there are twenty-five people under my employ. None but I offer advice.”

“And this work takes place at two hundred Carnegie Hall.”

“I have several suites there. Ten-oh-three Carnegie Hall is my private office.”

“Isn’t it true that you, initially, were turned down, time and time again, while searching for these suites?”

“Well, yes. That’s cor—”

“Your presence was unwelcomed at every building housing office space. Why exactly was that?”

“But, ma’am. As you yourself mentioned, we did locate—”

“Your Honor, please let it be known that the suites to which Miss Adams refers are artists’ studios, not offices. For the likes of performers and such,” the prosecutrix says while tilting her head fully back, now addressing the ceiling.

I looked at the judge, insecurity and indecision hovering outside my mind, the way a child seeks support from a parent.

“Finish your thought, ma’am,” the judge says.

“We did locate studios at Carnegie Hall. There are more th—”

The prosecutrix interrupts. “Before we delve into an explanation of what you call ‘your work,’ ‘your profession,’ do you understand why you are here? Fraud. Fraud by fortunetelling. A crime.”

“I understand. Perfectly. I’m no fortuneteller.” Defiance enters my voice. “Rather than pay the fine, I’m here now, to demonstrate what I do.”

“At the taxpayer’s expense. Do you know how bus—”

While fiddling with his gavel by means of his fingertips, Judge Freschi interrupts Miss Scrum. “It is the nature of your business in general. You have chosen to come before me today to, in essence, defend your business rather than yourself. Am I comprehending the nature of your wishes accurately?”

“Yes, and I most appreciate your time with me in this place of law, your Honor.”

“Well, I must say, you are standing in the company of two most-accomplished and successful defenders.”

“Thank you, Judge Freschi,” the polished lawyer behind my right shoulder says mildly, raising his forearm for all to view the diamond cufflink set in sterling silver he attempts to re-clasp.

Hearing his faux-bravado voice, even for a split second, agitates me. I am here to defend myself. Me alone. This is my task. I, with all due respect, am the star attraction, in this, the center ring. The price I’ve paid to attain this standing has been high, with many years of toil and trouble to prove a singular point: astrology is the oldest science on the planet.

“I will like to speak to you myself, your Honor. No one knows astrology as I do. In my humble opinion.”

“This is the business to which you are referring?”

Before answering, in my head flash the thousands of charts I’ve systematically created. The pages and pages of data I’ve summoned, the computations I’ve formulated. The azimuths, the progressions, the sextiles as well as octiles. The clients in front of me and those I know only through the post. Not only am I defending astrology; I am defending my entire existence, my livelihood, my life. Trying to convince someone of the legitimacy of this most elemental discipline is like breathing for me now. It’s done daily, without thought or planning. An inborn incident.

“Astrology is my business. That’s absolutely correct, Judge Freschi.”

“Astrology. The interpretation of the stars,” the judge says, nodding. “Forgive my ignorance, but how does this differ then from astronomy?”

“Your Honor, time is of the essence. If we—”

Knowing that I may never get this opportunity again, I interrupt Miss Scrum. “Astronomy is the study of all objects outside our world. It, too, is a science. Astronomy, you could say, came from astrology. Yes, you are correct when you mentioned interpretation. Astrology is the oldest, most ancient, of all sciences.”

“Beside you, you have the books to substantiate this?”

“Yes, many. Many books have been written on this subject, writings from centuries back by men who are well respected as authorities on this subject, as well as others. The Art of Synthesis by Alan Leo, Liber Astronomiae, Guido Bonatti, Christian Astrology and its subsequent volumes, all written by the Englishman, 17th-century astrologist, William Lilly…” I look over in the direction of the prosecutrix to find her eyes rolling as swiftly as a spiraling pigskin thrown at midfield for a touchdown. I stop.

“To much of the public you are a fortuneteller. Do you intend to disprove this today?” Prosecutrix Scrum asks while looking at the judge, not to me.

“And I will. I am no fortuneteller and I’d now like to tell you why.”

“Please proceed then,” Judge Freschi tells me, seeming as if curiosity has gotten the best of him.

The precise moment I have been awaiting is before me. I have hitherto collected my thoughts and my words to the best of my intelligence. Before being able to express myself, I hear a distinguishable cough from behind me. I know it came from Emma. No, not strategic, natural. An organic occurrence that provides meaning to me. A sign of sorts, as I believe it to be. Others may not. Either way, the sound from my beloved Emma validates my motives to continue.

“Firstly, I appreciate so much the opportunity to be before you, the prosecution, Detective Priess and Detective Roos today in this Superior Court. My business, my consulting business as an astrologer, comes after years of devoted study, not by chance. I believe I have earned the title of expert.”

“An expert of astrology? Not astron—”

“No more interruptions, Mrs. Scrum,” the judge commands.

Mrs.? Well, you could have fooled me. “Yes. Astrology is the science which describes the influence of the heavenly bodies upon mundane affairs, upon human character and life. To be most clear-cut, it is a mathematical or exact science deciphered via astronomy, which describes the heavenly bodies and explains their motions, etc.”

“These heavenly bodies to which you are referencing are planets. Not Heaven itself,” the judge says with a wry smirk.

I pause as those in the courtroom chuckle. “It, astrology, is an applied science in that it takes the established principles of astronomy as its guide in delineating human character. It is an empirical science, because its deductions are mathematical calculations based upon accurate data that have been gathered for thousands of years. Are you understanding me, your Honor? Mrs. Scrum?”

“I most certainly am. Please do continue,” Judge Freschi says while Mrs. Scrum lets out a sigh.

“Thank you, Judge. Astrology is the oldest science in existence. It is not only pre-historic but pre-traditional, and must not be classed with fortune telling, or any of the many forms of demonology as practiced in ancient and modern times.” I still sense reticence and skepticism coming from the man seated before me. Like all I have ever known, this, too, will be a challenge.

“Your presentation is quite proficient. Please do carry on with your defense, Miss Adams.”

Gracious be. Another good sign.

“Astrology is the science of the effects of the Solar Currents on all living things, especially human life. The earth, in revolving around the sun, passes through twelve different currents of Solar Fluid, thus causing the great diversity in human life.”

“Currents. Like wading down a stream to discover others unlike ourselves? Diverse others?”

“Perhaps so. A path, so to speak.”

I proceed to tell his Honor more and more of what I have learned to be intelligent information. As far as I can determine he is able to absorb its meaning and ponder what I am saying as the truth.

Mrs. Scrum next bolts to her feet. “Your Honor, we cannot hold up the proceedings of the day any longer with—”

“You’re entirely correct, Mrs. Scrum.”

“Thank you, your Honor,” she says sweetly. “Now then, time for your demonstration, Miss Adams. Take this data, look it over and divulge your findings,” Mrs. Scrum tells me while handing me a piece of paper folded neatly in quarters. “Everything on it that you need?”

The moment of truth has arrived. Upon finding the contents within, no name appears; only a birth date, including year along with location and time of birth, nothing else. All the ingredients I’d requested beforehand. “Yes, indeed, ma’am.” My heart pounds identically like the jackhammer I hear on the street outside.

“If your demonstration does take beyond the agreed-upon allotment, we will have to continue onto another case. Yours will be over,” the judge reminds me.

Before responding, my eyes jut over to my left without a flinch. There, staring at me sternly in polished almond wood, so matter-of-factly, a Comtoise longcase clock ready to strike three. “The chart I cast will take no more than a few minutes and I will then explain it.”

With little more back and forth, Judge Freschi and Mrs. Scrum allow me to do my work in front of them, in their presence and that of everyone else in the courtroom. Although I dare not look back, I can tell that Sabine and Emma are holding their breaths.

I take out my ephemeris, my compass, my writing tools and begin cyphering and scribing. Is it interest or boredom on the faces of the twenty-or-so spectators behind me? I focus only on the task at hand, knowing no more than ten minutes will be needed to chart this anonymous person’s life story. It turns out to be a challenging, sorrowful tale to tell. But, when complete, I convey all back to the silenced courtroom.

“This is a younger man. A boy with slightly longer hair the color of flame. Clear green eyes. Skin freckled from the sun. Athletic. Playful. Obstinate. Bold in front of others, uncertain by himself. Frequently misunderstood by family members. Discontent with their misjudgments. A somber face worn in private. Sadly, this hapless lad will live a very short life. Water. A watery grave. Water, water all around him that will take his life so early…”

First a gasp is heard during my words, then a few whispers and murmurs from those awaiting their turn at trial, then nothing. Mrs. Scrum, a look of astonishment on her face, remains silent. Her eyes search out the judge.

“That was my son.” Judge Freschi’s voice cracks. He next looks down at a metal-framed object indistinguishable to me atop his desk. “He drowned recently.” The judge’s relative speechlessness leads the prosecutor to ask more questions of me regarding the fees I charge, income, taxes paid, business licenses, my previous employment in Boston and any prior criminal activity or incarceration. I respond succinctly, accurately, truthfully with a clear conscience. Mrs. Scrum discovers nothing blameworthy. Everything I do, professionally and personally, is thoroughly legal and above board. Abruptly, Judge Freschi cuts the prosecutrix off mid-sentence and orders a brief recess.

The courtroom erupts in chatter.

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When the judge returns, I stand.

“The defendant has given ample proof that she is a woman of learning and culture, and one who is very well versed in astronomy and other sciences. I say she violated no law.”

The judge glances to the prosecutrix, then to me, then to the courtroom at large while holding the paperwork I had given him in his right hand—his son’s chart. As he waves it in front of us all, he declares, “I am satisfied that the defendant has not pretended to tell fortunes, and she is accordingly acquitted. Defendant dismissed.”

My good humor is magnified when he adds, “Today, this defendant raises astrology to the dignity of an exact science.”

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The same reporter is waiting in the foyer of the courthouse, and this time he follows me as we both head out of the building.

“The judge, in his most honest appraisal of me and my efforts, has done astrology a great favor. My business goes on. I applaud the way he conducted himself today. Judge Freschi could have—”

“What do you think this decision will lead to? For you? For others?” the stout reporter asks.

“I don’t know about the others. For me, professionally, it means that my quest in life remains intact, alive.”

“Which is…?”

“To thrust astrology from reading rooms into mainstream popular culture, and to be remembered, in perpetuity, for having done so.”

“To some, you’ve already achieved this. The former anyway. Doesn’t seem like much of a challenge. And personally?”

At that, Mr. Slocum displays his first show of fine manners: he opens the front door for me. Outside, my eyes see only sunshine, no more clouds, no rain. The late-afternoon yields nothing but brightness and blue skies ahead. “To see if I can accomplish this all, indisputably, and then some, before November 10, 1932.”

“What’s so significant about that date in particular, ma’am?”

While contemplating my answer a waft of noxious air indistinguishable to my senses invades my being, causing me to briefly lose my breath. Fecal odor via the sewer? Illuminating gas? Fumes from the tenements and shanties that line Eighth Avenue nearby? Ninth? The smell of death? “Oh,” I say, “it’s just a private goal I’ve set for myself.”

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As I walk down the steps of the courthouse, nothing in my life, my career, will ever again be the same.

Donner Lake, CA

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